Tuesday 27 December 2011

10 days and counting

10 days to go and I am almost ready…. almost…..
I have almost finished work. I have almost completed my list of administrative tasks. I have almost finished saying final goodbyes to friends and family. I have almost started packing…..but not quite !
This month I have been overwhelmed at people’s generosity and support in numerous ways. Work colleagues have voiced their appreciation and affirmation of what I do in the medical world; friends and family have said how much they value me and will miss me; and many of you have prayed specifically for me and given financially. I am truly grateful for all the love and encouragement I have received. There’s been something quite humbling about this last month.  
Humbling – yes. Why? Because I am aware that I don’t have a right to people’s support, but I do need it. Acknowledging that I actually need help and then seeing it so generously provided is actually quite a humbling experience.  
In the 21st century we are brought up to be independent and self-reliant. So the idea of relying on someone or something else to provide for our needs takes a bit of getting used to. We are also brought up to work hard so we deserve our achievements.  So giving up my job and financial security, leaving behind emotional attachments to family and friends, so I can volunteer on a ship in Africa seems to turn this view upside down. Or does it?
I am reliant on others to support and provide for me. The concept that I don’t deserve it, I don’t have a right to it yet I still need it, reminds me of Christmas. God sent His son into the world because we needed Him. Jesus offers to support and provide for us. We don’t deserve it, but the gift is given. Receiving the gift requires humility (or meekness). The carol, O little town of Bethlehem puts it like this:
How silently, how silently,
    The wondrous gift is given;
So God imparts to human hearts
    The blessings of His Heaven.
No ear may hear His coming,
    But in this world of sin,
Where meek souls will receive Him still,
    The dear Christ enters in.


So, thank you for your kind support and generous provision which has been a tangible reminder of the meaning of Christmas.
Only 10 days to go…..I’m almost ready ……. but I’d better start packing.